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[Dec. 6th, 2009|05:04 am] |
Describe happy.
What the FUCK is happy? I'm sure once I encounter this feeling I will somewhat know what it feels like. For now, I'll just sit and wonder.
I'm depressed because my family life is shit. No one wants to help me.
I'm depressed because I'm busting my ass working two jobs and all my money goes out the window for other people.
I'm depressed because my boyfriend is becoming an asshole.
I can't take it anymore. I hardly write in this thing anymore and it's just because I feel like it's not worth writing all the bullshit but it's come to the point where I can't keep shit bottled in anymore. I just can't. No one is human enough to talk to anymore. Not one person. Everyone is way too selfish to listen and console me when I cry like I do for them. Fuck them.
Fuck you all for never being there for me. |
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[Oct. 31st, 2009|08:13 pm] |
When are people going to grow out of their high school lives?
YOU ARE ALL SO FUCKING PATHETIC. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2009|02:30 am] |
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Claude, You are forever in my heart and in my memories. Your life lives on through your sons and beautiful grandchildren. You are sadly missed but we know that your suffering and pain is now over. We will forever love you. RIP Claude Coelho. |
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[Oct. 21st, 2009|05:03 pm] |
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I can help all the people in the world, bend over backwards, fight for rights, give anyone my last dollar and the shirt of my back, save animals, recycle more, help cure the sick and help the elderly but I am STILL not a good person. wtf. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2009|06:04 am] |
omg.. my life...
..it needs to end in all seriousness. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|01:12 am] |
It would mean a lot to me if you could donate some money to my family. This is a charitable event that we are walking in to raise money for Claude Coelho, a member of my family who currently had his treatment stopped because it was no longer helping his cancer. Just a couple of days ago we were told by his doctor that he has only 2 weeks-2 months to live. Please help us out. Every penny counts. I would really appreciate it.
http://pages.lightthenight.org/ri/Lincri09/KSouto |
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[Aug. 30th, 2009|10:25 pm] |
I really just.... don't post anymore.
and I don't because... my life is so fucking dull and stupid and pathetic. I work, eat and sleep. And that's how my life goes. I hate it. I hate it all. I want to be out doing something. I want to go for a ride to Little Compton and just look at the stars.
I want to fucking DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE! I'm so sick of the same routine everyday. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2009|03:09 am] |
Mozart Season! I can't believe I chilled and smoked with them all night long.
They are the most amazing guys ever! |
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[Aug. 8th, 2009|09:48 pm] |
Staples is going extremely well.
It's tiring yet relaxing at the same time.
I love having the money come in too.
I can now finally afford to eat organic again.
I can't wait. |
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[Aug. 5th, 2009|08:49 pm] |
Is it gross that I want to be this skinny/skinnier. I'm tired of being fat.
Anyone know any great diets? |
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[Jul. 30th, 2009|07:59 pm] |
Only the best cook book ever!
I'm not even vegan but the recipes are to DIE for! |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2009|05:18 am] |
I couldn't sleep last night... too busy thinking of you.
So it's almost 5:30 and I haven't slept yet. I have my first day at staples starting at noon.
Then I get to see my baby and Club Hell at night.
Nap time?
I think so.
Life is looking up.
Oh and first things I'm doing when I get paid:
Paying back Matt A.
Getting an iPhone.
Paying off my camera.
Redying my hair. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2009|01:14 pm] |
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I really just don't have the strength to fight this anymore. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2009|12:56 pm] |
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your live, but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes, after that, you'd better know something.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people, it's what they do about it.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you'll see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgive by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other and just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I've learned to love and be loved.
I've learned. |
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[Jun. 30th, 2009|02:14 am] |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|04:54 am] |
I am completely terrified of where my life is going.
Again, no one to talk to.
I just need someone to relate to.
If you are out there, please, contact me. |
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