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[Jul. 9th, 2009|01:14 pm] |
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I really just don't have the strength to fight this anymore. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2009|03:35 am] |
I'm so sick of annoying sluts calling my boyfriends phone.
Why me? |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2009|12:56 pm] |
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your live, but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes, after that, you'd better know something.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people, it's what they do about it.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you'll see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgive by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other and just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I've learned to love and be loved.
I've learned. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|04:54 am] |
I am completely terrified of where my life is going.
Again, no one to talk to.
I just need someone to relate to.
If you are out there, please, contact me. |
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[Jun. 13th, 2009|06:42 pm] |
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I am saddened that I really have nothing to update about anymore. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2009|03:37 am] |
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So it's currently 3:37am and I am sitting in bed with my boyfriend asleep at my side. When would this not be a more perfect time to rant about life.
For the past....year or so, I've felt so homeless and alone. I've been living out of a bag and bouncing between home, my sisters house and my boyfriends house. I can't stay home. It's unhealthy. I'm abused. I just can't be in Bristol for a while. I can't stay at my boyfriend's because, unfortunately, he's still with his parents and his Dad made it clear last summer that I can not live there. I can't be at my sister's because she lives in Somerset.
I currently have no car and no job to save money to get one. Jobs in the area are running low. I feel so inadequate and so lost without one. Although I have a wonderful man at my side through everything, it's not enough. I lost my best friend. I lost ALL of my high school friends. My insecurities about myself do nothing but deepen.
I can't go back to BCC. That school is doing nothing but bothering me. The professors are idiots. The work is stupid. The classes are stupid. I learn nothing. It's either a year of beauty school for me or a semester of phlebotomy school. I need a career. I need a real job. I need something and I want it NOW!
I hate my life.
I hate every aspect of it. I want to have a job. I want to have a car. I want to have a career. I want to have my own place. I want to make my boyfriend the happiest boy in the world. I want to have my parents give me less stress. I want to be proposed to. I want to have SOMETHING happen so I can plan my future somehow. Right now I see nothing.
And is it weird that I keep having dreams of either people dying or people from the dead coming back? Also, I've seen two spirits in the past week. Are the dead trying to take me to the other side?
Nothing is working out for me anymore. |
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|09:31 pm] |
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I felt the need to update my journal but I wasn't so sure what to say. Actually, no, I know exactly what to say this just isn't the proper place and time to rant. I'll be back later for the ranting about how WONDERFUL my life is. |
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[May. 20th, 2009|07:35 am] |
Alex and I fell asleep holding hands.....
then woke up yelling at each other and fighting and now he's on the couch.
FML
Just as something is going perfectly, something always happens. |
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[May. 19th, 2009|09:21 am] |
I really want to start a debate entry.
So comment.
Comment about anything that's on your mind.
Tell me your liberal and conservative views.
Tell me your views on gay marriage and abortion.
Tell me your views on society.
Tell me anything. |
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[May. 10th, 2009|07:13 am] |
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I really need someone to talk to right about now.... anyone. |
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[Apr. 27th, 2009|10:39 am] |
I'm still not complete!
Where is this piece of me that is missing?! |
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[Apr. 26th, 2009|07:30 pm] |
Honestly,
If you aren't going to the show on Friday,
then I don't have to go with you and I'm just not coming to your house this week.
I think a break from each other would be nice. |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2009|01:29 am] |
So I just need to rant about a bunch of people because I'm getting sick of tired of things and I just have no one to rant to anymore because people are absolutely retarded.
1. You are unintelligent and disgusting. The fact that you disrespected me over and over again made me want to throw up. You said that "faggots should be beat up for being stupid and not normal". I really have nothing to say about that because you're immaturity and ignorance spoke for itself. You're a disgusting person.
2. I'm sick of hearing about you rant on and on about the dumbest shit and I sit there and listen because I'm your supposed friend. I'm also angry that, when I come to YOU for advice or just someone to rant to, you're always changing the subject or you don't care or you're just insulting. I'm talking to you right now and I've told you several times that you are a fool and you just don't get it. Grow up. Stop being a slut. You're putting a bad name to women and I just hate it. It's people like you that really need to end.
3. You've abandoned me for the 2nd time and I am just about ready to call it quits. Obviously the sincere messages I've been sending you on myspace clearly aren't enough since you've been ignoring me. I know you have a kid now but I mean, it never stopped us before. I really need to know if you want to still be friends or not and if the answer is yes then I suggest you step up to the plate. |
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[Apr. 13th, 2009|09:05 pm] |
I'm depressed.
And I am admitting it.
I'm not happy with the way my life is going.
I can't concentrate on school lately. I'm making my boyfriend unhappy. I'm not fulfilling everything I want to fulfill. I miss my friends. I miss summer days. I miss being carefree. I miss having a job. I miss having money. I miss a whole lot of things.
My mind is a trainwreck and I need a cigarette right now. I'm sitting my my window thinking about the days when I used to be happy and sit on my roof and talk to the people I love on the phone.
I feel dirty. My bangs are greasy. All of my hair is. I don't even care anymore.
I want to go for a late night drive with someone.
My feelings are never appreciated.
I'm falling in hate with you. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2009|01:53 am] |
I hate people who think they know fucking everything.
My mother is one of these people. |
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[Apr. 4th, 2009|03:06 am] |
FIRST VIDEO WAS A SUCCESS!
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